My hands are cold. And I don’t know if its because I’m nervous, excited or if its because the weather is cold and I’m only wearing a tank top.
So, last Saturday, the guy accepted my friend request. Here’s the thing. I can’t blame him for not going online for the whole week last week. I think he had his finals, so he was a busy guy. I was ultimately not so busy and I had my face stuck on facebook for most of the time. When he accepted it, I never expected it. I gave up on waiting on Friday. When I saw the notification on Saturday morning, that’s when I just jumped for joy. I know. There’s a difference in getting someone’s number and adding on someone online. There’s this sense of courage and personal feelings involved in getting a number. But in our case, this guy is on prepaid plan. I’m in postpaid, so, I’m always easy to contact. I reply right away, believe me I do. But he, I don’t think, is that reachable.
So, facebook is the easiest way for us to connect.
The weird thing is, though, he hasn’t added my other friend on facebook. He said he would. And they still aren’t friends. I wonder, if I didn’t add this guy and waited, would we be friends on facebook, by now?
So, I stalked his profile a total of three times before realizing, he may never start a chat with me. Three days have passed, and nothing has come up. Along with the fact that I don’t see him online. And I’m basically, always online.
This morning was different though. I saw the green circle light up beside his name on the chat box. And it crossed my mind. I should start the chat. I mean, what could go wrong? We were good friends on our trip. We joked a lot. But, I didn’t. I was about to leave anyway, so, I didn’t bother. I left the room for a short while before jumping in the shower, when I saw this little box at the lower right corner of my facebook page. And voila, there he was.
and i didn’t know what to say. I literally jumped for joy. Because, here was the guy I was thinking of for a whole damn week beginning a chat with me. He fuckin started it. It’s like OH MY GOSH, MY DREAMS HAVE COME TRUE. FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE, I DIDN’T HAVE TO FORCE ANYTHING. THANK HEAVENS.
And i replied with a casual, “sup”. And he takes a maximum of ten minutes to reply. Yes. I was in a shower, and I was changing when he finally replied. Really now? But I didn’t care. or I did. It’s just, I didn’t make it a big deal. I took my time replying. But really, my hear twas racing most of the time. So, I couldn’t really take my time. Excitement was running through my veins.
I ended the chat abruptly because I was really about to leave the house. But I don’t know. There was this feeling of lightness on my chest. The whole day. I’ve never felt like this in a long time.
Here’s an example. Awhile ago, my mom asked for help on making a photo collage. And normally, I would just tell her, “no, I won’t do that. There’s no way I am going to help you.” Then we’ll go on to a large argument and fight our heads off. But, for some reason, I was such a happy child, I ran across the house and helped her set up the program I found. And then just decided to help her. It was just so weird of me to do but there I was, doing it.
At 8:00 PM, awhile ago, I was chatting with a friend and told him that I may have left my charger back in the guy’s house. And I dunno, I felt kind of embarrassed. I hate leaving things. I don’t like doing that. It leaves a reputation on me. The girl who forgets. The girl who is absent minded. I hate that. And I tell him that I should ask the guy. And he’s all, OK. Go Ahead. The guy is online, offline, online, offline. I don’t know. So, the next time I catch him online, I leave him a message.
“Hi. I have a question.”
Almost fifteen minutes after, he replies with “what is it” and I tell him that i may have left my charger in their place. And he says he has it with him. And i’m ecstatic. And not because he has my charger but because I started a conversation with him that has lasted the past three hours.
I don’t know what I’m doing. Hurting myself. Finding a new friend. I mean, honestly, I don’t think I am gonna go out with someone I may only meet once in my entire life. Or someone, that I’m gonna know more about online than offline. But, its been fun. We’ve talked about a whole load of stuff. And I’m happy. So, let’s leave that be. And, I’ll wake up tomorrow a little happier.
And when school comes, I’ll get my charger back. YIPPEE!
Thanks you, charger that I left behind.